IM NOT OKEH,K!
SO STOP ASKING ME IF IM OKEH!

im sick of play pretend.
im sick of trying to be okeh when im not!
im just sick of it all okeh?
leave me alone a little while.

just now.
i didnt pay attention during maths.
my fingers just feel like writing.
so i wrote and wrote and wrote
until i cnt write anymore.



hey.you know i hate parting with you.right?
and still.you did it.
why?
just for my happiness. just to no hurt your bestfriend again?
so you sacrifice our friendship that just stand strong before
and now all that were left were ashes and memories.
im pissed.
im dissapointed.
im sad.
im (fill in the blanks).
it took 3 years to have such close friendship ans it takes less than 3 minutes to
watch it all fall down crashing.
you actually have the heart to do that?
and you just made it all sound so simple.
like it wont affect me so much.
like hey.
you know me inside out.
and i know you inside out.
why sacrifice?
you told me to forget all about you.
erase everything that have got to do with you.
i did and i will.
but you think its that easy?
like erasing a pencil mark of a paper?
hey.
its not okeh?
why?
because you're my Guardian Angel.
you are part of my life and you;re reason why im still living
and having hope,faith and believe.
you just give me the strength to carry on with my life.
and in the end.
i got back with my romeo.
who happens to be your best friend?
and you dont want him to go bleeding at heart.
indeed.
he is your bestfriend.
he knows we're close since like forever.
he have and will learn to accept it.
but no.
you burn our 'relationship'
as in being best of friends just to see him happy.
while you?
me?
you have watch me fall
you help me rise back.
and stand on my feet
you have heard my cries
you have witness my happiness and sorrow
you are one soul who knows the real me.
and now.
you're making your way out of my life
and all im trying to do is to stop you.
im not that strong.
because my powers i've drained from all the tears i cried.
yes i cried.
i bet you dont even care.
and all im trying to say is please stay?
if not as a brother then as a friend
but dont leaave me alone.
im not going to play pretend anymore.
im not okeh.
and you know it.
so stop worrying about me if you are.
im going to miss you.
you and your calls.
you and your jokes.
you and your listening ear.
you and me going crazy together.
now.
all that is left is you and me in memory.
imalone. again.

im gonna cry.
cry my lungs out.
until i have no more reason to cry.
now,leave me alone.

when what you hope is not what you get
you cant expect me to be OK when im not.
im not attracting audiences to the drama of my life.
i am just sick of play pretend and be someone i know im not.


now i need SHAFIQ.
i dunnoe.
but i need him more than ever.

yes!
i have F&N Practical Examintaion today.
yes!
i cooked two dish in less than 2 hours.
yes!
its like so simple.
yes ofcourse!
its delicious.
surprisingly.
i modify the recipes.
so i cook Tom Yum Soup &
'Lite' Chicken Chop.

im sick.
im sick.
im sick.
im sick.
im sick.
im sick.
im sick.

im weak.
im weak.
im weak.
im weak.
im weak.
im weak.
im weak.

i feel like skipping school today.
but i have F&N practical.
im sick k?
then.
i feel like skipping school tmr,
but i have NPCC Land Division visit.
im sick k?
then.
i feel like skipping school on wednesday.
but i got Higher Malay Remedial/Chemistry Remedial
andd the OBS thingy talk.
im sick k?
then i feel like skipping school on thursday.
but i realise thursday no school.
so i shall rest at home the whole day.

this morning kan.
i went school with SHAFIQ.
i lost my voice so i talk so soft.
then the whole time i talk to him kan.
he'll have to lean closer to me and say
"huh?"
"apa nya?"
then i repeat myself.
my throat hurts tau repeating.(:
but i like.i like!
then i cant really walk properly.
because my whole body just hurts alot
so i will keep knocking on him.
then my whole body will just bounce back.
like cushion gituu tau!(:
thennnnn.
i cannot take the Morning Assembly today.
because i cant shout.
lost my voice.
it went on a vacation! xD
so Khairul replace meee.
and you know.
we have to stand so long.
that i can hardly stand properly.
but still.
i try to tauu.

thw whole day.
i never pay much attention in class.
i can hardly sit straight.
im like so sickkkk.
i didnt do my POA homework.
so i had detention after school.
i stayed back eventhough im sick.
you know why?
becauseeee.
IM A SUPER GOOD GIRL! xD

i didnt get to go home with SHAFIQ. D:
i dont want him to wait for me.
because i know it'll take hours and im not gonna end on time.
lunch-ed sith Sofia,Sherra&Atiqah.(:
i didnt talk much.
too sick alrd.
then went for detention.
sit.
did POA stuff.
its suppose to be an hour.
but it drageed to almost 2 hours.
like so the shffdghhfb laaa!
its like so what laaa.

then.
bubble tea-ed with Sofia,Sherra,Atiqah&Shahir(:
slack ard awhile
and i went home.(:
eh.
euu realise how boring it is to post what we did todayy.
yes its boring! xD

im sick.
and i need SHAFIQ hereee like now! xD
okeh.
i'll endd it here k?


i begin to realise that eventhough i damn yoo in my blog.
i still have this feeling in me that really makes me realise hoe valuable you are.
and this feeling is called LOVE.
and i begin to accept you for who you are.
and i realise how much i;ve been missing hating yoo.
i realise its just no use.
see hunneh!
i LOVE yooo.
girl,you know who you are.

why are pieces of us fading?
we arent close like how we use to be before.
what is actually drifting us apart?
i was the old us.
when we go crazy together.
i miss spending time with you.
i miss phone calls with yooo.
i miss us.
yes.
i really do.

OH RANDOM! xD
okeh no.

i cooked todayyy!
ahahahah xD
just trying out recipes for Monday's Practical Examination.
*bite nails!
ehh!
scary siot!
what if the dish doesnt turn out the way i want it to be?
i cryyy uhhh!
LAWL! xD

anyhooo!
im supposed to rant about thursday like 2 days agooo!
and friday like ystd!

THURSDAY!
after school.
me&Sofia got so bored and got no idea whaaaat to doo
after schoool!
so we went to JE the Pasar Malam.
bought some food walk around.
and i keep on asking that darling of mine
"Where yoo want to go?"
"Where to go next?"
"Go Where?"

and her replies are all the same
"I Follow yooo"
FUNNY OR WHAAAAT?
i wasnt pissed darling!
irritated got laaa! xD

we got nothing else to do so Sofia darlingg
requested to take 99 one rounddd!
nice or whaaat!
its more of a silent trip!
but i enjoyed every second of it.
OI!
a day with my darlinggg whaaaaaaat!
only a bodo wont enjoy it!
oh ya!
we said alot of
"BODO!"
"like BODO only yoo!"
"like BODO like that!"
"BODOHS!"
alotalot tauuu!
she madee my day laaa!
DUH-uh! xD

FRIDAY!
SPORTS DAY.
well.
moreee of a GAMES DAY!
i dont feel like putting on the blueee house t-shirt
with the word CYCLONE behindd it!
but still.
i have to.
I may be in CYCLONE
but my heart is still at STORM!
"semangat CYCLONE!
akuu tak sukaaa CYCLONE!" (:
i said that like a gazillion times!
anyway!
its the first ever SPORTS DAY i dont take part in anything.
like dhgfskdtbkt laaa!
me&Sofia sign-ed up for Street Soccer but fot kicked out just for another sec 4 girls!
I SHOULD BE KICKING BALL!
and not watch people KICKING BALL!
ehh!
i could have scored or at least tackle all those legs that got in thee way!
hey!
i good tackle-er yooo know!
even Yu Heng's afraid of me when i play soccer!
ahahahahahahah! xD
i miss playing SOCCER.
anddddddd!
my class so-called 'cheerleaders' got replaced by a group
of Sec Ones?!
er!
another replacement?
first cannot play soccer.
then now cannot cheerleaddd!
like HELLO?!
we could have done a better job!
haiy0r!
so basicaly i watch Captains Ball,Soccer,Captain's Ball again & then Soccer!
mentioning soccer just make me go AAHHHH!
me& Sofia walkwalkwalk.
then we slacked ard with the 3D who is supporting the Captains Ball team from our class
let's name a few.
Hilary,Asyikin,Amirah,Keandra,Suhaira,Clarissa&Hui Wen! (:
we cheer!we cheer!
thenn 3D went ULTRAAA CRAZYY during the teacher's racee&Cheerleading Competition!
we went HIGHHHHHH!
we cheered for MRS NEOOOO!
the girls especially!
SOFIA,SHERRA,AMIRAH,SUHAIRA,ASYIKIN,AFIFAH,
ATIQAH,AMANDA,CLARISSA&HUI WEN!
amandaaa funny sey!
there's this time got the STORM cheer leadergo madddd.
we are like "marah nampak!marah nampak!"
amanda just echoed!
ahahahahah! xD
we went highhh!
we sang
"WHINE UP! WHINE UP! WHINE UP! OH YEAAA!"
when the STORM performed!
andd we followed the actions of CYCLONE cheerleaders.
"GET LOW!LOW!LOW!LOW!LOW!"
ahahahahahahah! xD
3D RAWKS TO THE MAX laaa can! (:
andd that's whyy i love 3D!
ehh!
the 3D CAPTAIN'S BALL TEAM WON LAAA OIIII!

went to bubble teaaa after that with Sofia&Nadhilah.
chat!chat!
blow PEARLS!
anddd homeee i go!
changed and lunch with mummy at IMM! (:

okehhh!
i'll post pictures soon laa k?(:
im so darn lazy to upload themm!

OOHH!
MYE is just around the corner!
&&
I LOST MY VOICE!
thanks to ystd!
toooo muchhhhh screaminggggg!
betul tak bedek! xD

this was the video that really moved me.
that really touches my heart.
that really taught me about true beauty that lies within.
that makes me cry everytime i watch it.
that makes me realise how lucky i am.
okeh.
the list will never end.
try watching it.(:

WHOOOO~
like people would.
but anyhoooo!
i want to tell you something.(:
a little story.
okeh not(:

The person i damn in the previous post
handed me a letter yesterday.
WHOA!
wanna know something?
the person can do magic.
the person can make me pissed and at the same time guilty
and at the same time angry and at the same time sad.
so that was how i felt reading the letter.
i gave her my reply alrd.
i was just trying my best to make it sound NOT harsh.
at least i tried kan?
anyhoooo.
i wonder how the person felt.
BOY im glad the person realise their mistake.
at least it wasnt a waste telling her off kan?
i cant believe im saying this but.
hey.
the letter has a point and ya.
its what i have been doing to her etc.
but what i dont really like is that.
the tone set on me in the letter was completely different laa woi.
its like so.
UGH~!
cant find the word.
while the rest is so.
gentle.
so its like tak ikhlas gitu.
alaaaa~
i forgive her.
im making this public hokay?
I FORGIVE YOOO!
&
IM SORRY!
see!
i made it public and still.
i dont reveal who you are.
but it will take time to really forgive&forget.
but in this.
i swear.
i wont forget.
but now.
lets start from scratch.
i cant really face yoo now.
NOT because im a coward or something.
but.
i cant face someone i am pissed at or even talk to them.
or my words will hurt them.
so in this case it will hurt yooo.
so before i spat vilgarities.
its best you leave me alone to be first.
i mean you can talk to me.
but dont look at me face.
or i wont talk.
what crap am i talking again?
LAWL! xD
in other words.
if you wanna talk,
its best if you write to me.
meanwhile laaa(:
not FOREVER.
i sound so guilty.
LAWL! xD
okeh no.
im pissed but now im feeling okeh.
not really pissed anymore.(:

see!
its notfunfair damn-ing in my blog.
because bothe of us realise our mistakes!
ahahahahah! xD
but what sets me thinking is.
how euu really know what wrong euu did to your friends.
still wondering...
oh yaaa!
yooo look neater tying yoooou hair! xD
like what has that gotta to with this? (:

im a SUPER GOOD GIRL! xD

i feel guilty not talking much to SHAFIQ this few days.
i have my own reasons k? (:
I L Y laa k?
no matter whaaaat.(:

eh!
i said something that time that make him melt?
or make him say that im sweet(:
i changed my MSN namee to 'DEVIL IN DIGUISE'
he was like
"who's that?"
so i said
"ME! xD"

then i said.
"Because I always hurt you,
and you always say sorry
even though it wasnt your fault
and that makes me love you more(:"

then i read again
then i was like.
yaaaaa. sweeeeet.

andd people.
if im silent this few days.
dont ask why k?
i got my own reasons
and i aint telling anyone.

k bye readers.

i realise that lifee is boring without NPCC(:
LAWL xD
but boy am i glad that there wont be NPCC training for two weeks!
last week&this week!
ahahahaahhaha! xD
because now.
i so dreadddd to come to NPCC(:
whoa!
did i just say that! xD
oh yes i did!

anyhoooo!
i got a gazillions of homework to complete.
namely English.Maths.POA.Malayy&Higher Malayy!
saddened!
and im still here facing the computes.
beaming my hearts out to the computer screen.
say it with me!
LAUGH OUT LOUD! xD
k lame!

POA is being such an ass to me.
i keep on reading the notes.
studying the exercises.
practicing but still.
i got stuck at a question on
Trading and Profit and Loss Account+Balance Sheet.
like so FREAKY ASS! =X
i kept on referring to the exercises i did.
two words.
NOT HELPING!
POA,do yoooo really hate me?
andd.
mid year is playing BOO-CAK with me!
just around the corner.
and before i know it.
it creeps up and
*insert panic face here!
WHOA!
im beginning to muggg hard like a SUPER good girl!
well.
cant deny i am.
CHEY!
i need trips to library.
WITH NO BOYS!
i guess.
LAWL! xD
i mean guys whoo would distract me.
SAYANG, you're out.
okeh no.(:

its
MID YEAR EXAMINATIONS!
like HELLO?!
whoa! the name gives me the creeps.
i think im running a feveeeeeer! xD xD xD
NOT!
wait
why am i ranting crapppppp here?

oh yaaaa.
i've cooled down by now! xD
yes.
lucky the girl didnt smile or talk to me with that innocent facee.
or i SMACK HER FACE HARD!
andddd.
SPAT HER FACE WITH MY WONDERFUL VOCABULARY.(:
oh you poor thing.
*insert pathetic face hereeee.

ahahahahahahahah! xD
like what Faz says.
MEGA LAWL! xD

i girltalked with Nadhirahh today.
right after school.(:
we went bubble tea.
grab a few bites.
and we walk all the way to the bus stop near the Community Centre.
talking.talking.talking.
hey.
thanks for the time yea?
i really feel better(:
*BEAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!

i should be doing my homework now.
wait.
yaaaaa i should!
its calling my nameeee! xD xD xD

byeeeeee all my dearest sweet retard ass! xD

i loooove using the word ass this week! xD

oh asssss! xD

18 April.NOSTALGIA UNDER THE STARS DINNER! xD
only at JVS tauus!
gerek nyaaa malam!


SOFIA AINI IS LOVED! xD


MUHAMMAD HAFAZLI IS TALL AND LOVED! (:
finally a picture abanggg!
i like it samapi jadi wallpaper pat handdphonee!




AFIFAH IS SO LOVED! xD
diaa yang paling gilaaaa!
aku sayang diaaa!


I LOVE AMIRAH ALOOOOOOT! xD
buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih k?
BESTFRIENDS FOREVER! xD
i loooove you alotalot can?
you hotstuff! xD






ME! xD
self obssesed k?
undersatnddd? xD
i have dressed my best!
i like it!








MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ!
aku CINTA kau banyakbanyak tauuu!
he's hot kannn that night?
dikeremuni perempuans!
AKU JEALOUS BODO! xD

people!
gimme pictures! xD
SOFIA AINI OWES ME ALOT!
ahahahahahahahh! xD
i realise i never take pics with the most gorgeous.
SHERRA HUNNEH! D:
wasted! xD

the night was AWESOME! xD
except for the food!
okeh.
then went ard snapping pictures.
SOFIA IS SO PRETTAYE!
SHERRA IS DROPDEAD GORGEOUS!
AMIRAH IS SOPHISTICATED! (as said by sofia aini!)
AFIFAH IS GEEKY!
CLARISSA IS SIMPLE BUT PRETTY! (love the eye make-up!)
JIAHUI IS NICENICE! xD

i think that is all the 3D girls at myy table! xD
and im like so uhm.
CHOCOLATEY!
ahahahahah! xD
like im all brown&whiteeee!
didnt get a change to take photos with some people!
thnks to my parents who is rushing me to go homee!
haiy0r!
like what's the rush mannn! xD
kindda pissed.
but heck.
i got picutes with my SAYANG&ABANG!

okeh laaa.(:
the performance was like.
so-so.
i cannot see the performers.
hear only laaa! xD

i'll post more pictures laa soon.
as soon as i got to have hold on them!
SOFIA AINI!
MY PICTURES! xD

i wish last night will never enddd!
i love last night!
seriously.
ALOTALOT! xD

what the heck is wrong with you?
consider yourself lucky having friends like us.
seriously.
if i were to be me.
my true self.
i'll go up on you and spat your face with my beautiful vocabulary.
and you stood there stunned.
we gave you alot of chances.
for once laa.
CHANGE!
we advice you.
you go all
"i'll try to change for the better"
you go all changing and soon the new you melted off
and youre back to your f*uking old self!
what is this?
TELL YOU WHAT 'SWEETHEART'
dont think you're miss 'i can do anything!'
because you know what?
YOU'RE NOT!
stop using your friends.
stop holding grudges can?
say sorry to the poor victim of your stupid acts.
like as if you got no brain to think.
you can make own decisions right?
so what?
your friends minta tolong
euu need to do laaa.
"im doing this for a friend of mine"
LIKE WHAT THE HECK IS THAT?!
euu use your friends.
HEY!
wassup with im closer to this person.
im connetcted to this person.
PADAHALPADAHAL!
ehh!
aku tak pernah nampak kau ngan budak yang kau 'connected' kau
and what's with.
"hanna only goes to me when she needs me"
TELL YOU WHAT!
when you need a listening ear.
you ask me.
did i decline?
when you ask me to accompany you.
did i decline?
well maybe a little.
but DID I DECLINE?
DID WE DECLINE!
hey im not the only victim of your cruelty!
theres like a whole lot more laa.
ehh!
kau piteri gunung ledang tak menjadi eh?
nak kener hantarhantat nie semua.
i know laa kau kayaa!
tak macam kita!
and my dear girl!
when you got your friends.
you leave me alone.
whos using who now?
i using you.
or YOU USING US!
OH YA 'SWEETIE'
in case you dont realise.
YOU'RE ONE PHOTOCOPY MACHINE!
the HIGH STANDARD ONE!
since like forever!
i mean like what's up with
"CRY OUT LOUD"
"BAHS"
"HAPPY ORDINARY TEENAGER(HOT)"
and manyy more to list.
EH!
IS IT THAT HARD TO OWN AN ORIGINALITY?
issit that effing hard?
acknowledge laa can.
TELL ME!
have we copied you?
EVER?
OH WAIT!
i forget!
WE CANT COPY YOU!
BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO ORIGINALITY AT ALL!
ALL OF YOU IS PART OF US!
GET IT?

get lost you dumbf**k!

asal?
terasa?
hate me all you want
i dont give a d!

I CHANGED MY SKIN AGAIN! (:
i dunnoe laaa.
but i like this oneee.(:
its theeeee besttt! xD
thinking of changing it again.
and.
anyhoooo.
this skin only looks good at IE.
im a Mozilla user myself.
and i have to stick looking at my blog so un-aligned.
becauseee i know MANYMANY people uses IE.
see im a SUPER GOOD GIRL
tyvm! xD

todayy kan.
SOFIA AINI never come to school.
i was saddened!
but lucky kan go my DARLINGG SHERRA.
at least shee make my dayyy! xD
girlfriends do tooo!
ya!
thnks.
AND SOFIA AINI!
YOU BETTER COME TMR!
OR IM GONNA BITEBITE YOU LIKE NOONE'S BUSINESS! xD
ahahahahaha! xD
over-reacting much?
but!
i need her tmr!
its shoe shoppinggg! xD
for friday's Speech Dayy!
COOL OR WHAT!
i decided on what to wear.
LAWL! xD
like finally.
i tried on MANY!
trust me when i say manymanymany of my dresses.
mix and match shirt and jean&pants etc.
FINALLY!
got my dress! xD
not that complicated nor revealing.
but it will do!
im gonna buy heels! xD
to match with the bajuu laa can!(:
then on the night i will look T A L L!
TALL in case you dont know! xD
its all about BROWN&WHITE!
OOHH~
macam chocolate ehh!
ahahahah! xD xD
make-up?
uhm.
yaaa maybe!
shall see first laaa!
oh wait.
why am i telling you guys this!
ahahahahah! xD
for the pleasure laa can.

reccess-ed with girlfiends.
meet HAFAZLI to lend him my dogg tagg! xD
LAWL! xD
kata hanna.
so i accessorise him.
sadd i cant find the blackk ringgg! xD xD xD
or you'll look complete! xD
YOU OWE ME PICTURES HAFAZLI! xD
then after school went to Bubble Teaaa opposite school!
EATEAT&DRINKDRINK.
went back school for NPCC meeting thingy.
its more like planning laa.
and got to know our posting.

&&
guess whaaaaaat!

im in sec 3 Training Department!
LAWL! xD
me?
haiy0r!
anyhoooo.
i'll do my job well.
i pinky swear!

saw MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ!
OOHH~
did i tell you how he look in No. 1 or whatever yooo call that
white colour uniform!
OOHH~
HOT-NESS!
he look.
uhm.
SMART.
AAHHHHHH!
ahahahhahahahaha! xD
like cnt take my eyes of him.
like every moment must see him!
LAWL! xD xD xD

I L Y k?

then went homeeee.
and here i amm! (:

andd yesterday.
after school.
we have the enrichment thingy.
which means we'll be seeing.
CANDICE KOH MEI LIAN! xD
she's funnyae laa can.
seriously.
her talks are inspirational.
and yesterday we were bought to a mood lower.
and this session.
is when i realise my gift.message.
and more about myself.
alot shed tears.
including me.
ME!
the girl who finds it hard to cry infront of everyone.
i dunnoe.
i just feel like letting go.

I remember her saying something like.
"The moment we steped in to the school.
we put on a mask so no one will know who we really are.
and even the person we call our best friend,
doesnt know the real me.
and the moment when you get home.
when you put down the mask.
you will feel so tired.
not of all the activities you did in school.
but tired of faking&pretending.
and when we are alone at home.
when the day is almost over.
that is when tears will start to roll down the cheeks.
You might laugh and smile.
and look like as if you're ok.
but actually deep in your heart.
you are bleeding.
you are hurting."

and that moment i know.
i HAVE been putting on a mask all the while.
what she says is exactly what i did almost everyday.
no one knows the REAL ME.
im afraid to reveal myself.
because i know.
people will loathe the real me.
people wont understand.
when i tell friends all they will say
"just be yourself"
but do they know how hard it is?
HOW PAINFUL IT IS?
and if i were to be myself like what they say.
can they accept me?
i bet they wont.
all they want is to do what that will make them happy.
make them feel satisfied.
but its tiring.
because either way one party will get hurt.
and i've let that party be me.
all you guys know is to judge me.
eventhough your judging the me with mask.
well.
i dont care.
im born to be judge.
or i wont go anywhere in life.
unhappy with me.
you tell me off.
and again.
i try to be perfect.
not happy again.
i try again.
it hurts so much because im trying so hard to play pretend.
no one ask me to anw.
but still.
its tiring.
and at times.
i feel like revealing my real self.
but i know.
no one will like me.
so yes.
im hiding my REAL self.
yes i am.
and as long as i live.
i will never put down this mask
i have been putting on for so long.

i cry and cry more when she shows video of 3 wonderful souls.
who really Persevere. have the courage to live, with true beauty.
i respect those people.
serious.
and she went through a process to find a message and a gift.
the moment i received the gift.
i cried.
yes i cry.
because its like a burden i have to carryy.
but still.
i have to fulfill it.
the message i receive is weird.
but i'll find out soon.
when i live my life to the fullest.
i really shed tears today.

emotional much?
oh heck!
just a piece of my mind.
hah.
its a long post lagi!

I MISS SOFIA AINI! xD

BOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
nyehahahaha! xD
macam nak go on hiatus but like.
im so gonna miss blogging if i do so laa kan?
LAWL! xD xD xD

anyhoooo!
currently in school now!(:
whooooooo~
okeh merepek.

just now lunch like GILAGILA can?
i went with Sofia,Afifah,Atiqah&Amirahh!(:
ahahahahahaha! xD
they macam so gila cannn?
i laugh&laugh&laugh non-stop! xD xD xD
serious.
dorang macam born joker.
especially that AFIFAH!
disgusting can?
ahahahahahahh! xD
KFC laaaa kan!
so kecohhh!
ahahahahahah!
aku macam naik tak selera can!
AFIFAH keep on mixing her chicken
with chilli laaa.whip potato laa what laaa.
then squeeeeeeeze everything in the
whip potato the container.
okeh

now afifahhh soooooo crazeeeeeeee! xD xD xD
okeh.
blog more later at home.
gotto go k?

I LOVE PEOPLE LIKE.
AFIFAHHH!
ATIQAHH!
SOFIAAA!
AMIRAHH!
3D '08!
:D :D :D
okeh.
then
I LOVE MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ!

i had fun today.
yeaaaaaa.
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY NADHIRAH! (:
-i promise i love you until the day i die.
ahahahahahah! xD
okeh.
simple k?
We ordered Pizza,
we eat pizza.
we sabotage iRah.
we are all covered with powder.
we are screaming&laughing.
we are happy.(:
i love today can?

early morning-morning.
i like so sorang laaa.
the rest all buat homework in class.
and i was just there staring at iRah,iLah&azLin
doing their homework at 3B.
i eventually got bored and staggered down to my class.
(i was staggering as both my legs are cramp.
all thnks to 2.4)
yea.
i had fever+splitting headache the night before i run.
and last night.
and yea.
being dumb i still ran 2.4! xD
SPLITTING HEADACHE!
ARGH!

anw.
where was i?
oh yaaa.
i went down and met SHAFIQ near the toilet.
we talked.
and i just let out almost everything on him.
ALMOST k?
then i cry.
but a bit.
and it aint obvious.
i was just DISSAPOINTED okeh?
he cheered me up&made my day.
as usual.
even though he did nothing.
the look of him made me SMILEEEEE!
*BIG GRIN! :D
me&sofia was pissed about something.
and we were talking about it almost through out
Social Studies!
'dirty little secrets!'
LAWL! xD
anyhoooo.
Assembly had a SPECTACULAR beginning.
but the whole talk about drugs was so-so.
maybe because i've been through the whole day
on just that talk.
remember SANA course?

ahhhh~
SANA COURSE.
*starts reminiscing.
okeh whatever! (:

SHAFIQ pergi entah aper bender hari ini.
and pulang lambat eh?
i dunnoe laaa.
i know he this few day busy gilaaaa nak mampos! (:
okehhh!

oohh~
im scratching my leg like no one's business!
its soo effing itchy can!
like all-of-a-sudden siaa!
ahhh!
oh shuddup hanna.

OH!
met up with old friend.
okeh NOT!
she's gonna scold me!(:
she's so tall & HOT!
you know standing with her
like standing next to lamp post!
i told her that!

H:ass laa yoooo! so tall!
M:why cannot uh?
H:no laaa. you look like lamp post to me.
M:how dare yooo!
*pinch my cheeks&tickle me!
H:*SCREAMS ehh! you tall tall later hard find husband how?
M:my problem laa. you care for what!

ahahahah! xD
we talk like campur campur laaa.
but aku translate.
because why?
because im a SUPER good girl! (:

then right.
i was bored.
so i started playing this car racing game i downloaded on my phone.
i was like really 'concentrating laa'

M:EH! dont be so merepek can?
H: HUH? Apek?
M:what apek? merepek laaa gundu yoo!
H: what me merepek?
M:*snatch my phone& browse through inbox.
H:*tried to sntch it back but too badd she's too strong.
M:got boy tak nak bilang! rabakkk!
H:I got boy your problem issit? (:
M:OH SHUDDUP! (:

then she gives me her stupid until cannot stupid anymore face!
we talk alot.
about school and stuffs.
SHE GOT PSP SLIM LAAA BODO!
im so jealous!
im still waiting for mine!
like dsfbkvfbvklgnbsg can?!
she got a gallery full of her pics.
& her boyfiee!
sweet laa can?(:
we bubble tea-ed.
and her boyfie fetched her.
and they walk me to my blockkk!(:
ahahahahha! xD
though i felt weird!
i did laugh my ass off!(:

MARTEEEENA! YOOOO ROCKKKK!(:
LAWL!
bilaaaa bolehh jumpaaaa lagiiiiiii uhhhh?
ahahahahahahh! xD

i should be doing P.O.A. now you know.
& Higher Malay.
OOHH!
i should be on hiatus!
like NOW!
because MYE is like in 3 more weeks!

HANNAAAAAA!
JYJY~!

okeh.
im done.
I LOVE BELOHZX!
I LOVE ME!
I LOVE MARTEEEENA!
I LOVE MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ!
I LOVE YOU READERS!(:

HIATUS TIME!
okeh later.
its been a while since i updated kan?
ALAAAAA~
you know kan.
before i want to blog.
i got like alot to rant about.
then when i log in.
BLANK!
i just stared at this screen for 5 minutes
thinking of what i wanted to write.
this happens all the timeee can?
or issit me yang ader
ESTM!
Extremely Short Term Memory!
okeh merepek!(:

i know my blog macam dead gitu kan?
ahaahahahahha!(:
malas uhh nak update.
anw.
yes.
i got back with my ex.
MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ.
i failed to get over him BIG TIME.
so i guess its better we get back like old times.
he da macam fully transform gitu.
*insert Transformers theme song here!
okeh merepek!(:
serious.
he made me into an extraextraextra happy girl(:
love him can?

im PISSED/SADDD/DISSAPOINTED!

what is wrong with you?
you're not happy
if i do things myself.
then when you do things yourself?
you expect me to be happy?
i cant.
where were you when i need you the most.
you said you want to do things together.
but no.
you didnt keep your words.
you found someone else.
some other friend.
and leave me alone.
clueless of what is going on.
you only come to me when you need me.
like what is that?
one moment you say hang out with me.
the next.
you take back your words and leave me.
HEY!
im not funfair k?
and after all that.
and you know you're wrong.
you start being.
OH-SO-SWEET to me.
HEY!
i got a heart!
i have feelings.
now put your self in my shoes.
what does that makes you feel.
stupid kan?
KAN?
i want th old you back laa.
not now.
we're drifting!
dont you see?
or your too bust having fun
that you forget i exist?
so.
go along with your self&your new friend.
i'll be here when you need me.
be happy.
yes.
while i go alone.
EH WAIT!
i got FRIENDS laaaa.
maybe better than yooooo!
DUH!

k.
fine.
whatever!